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Job Hunting.. And What Sophie Said..

Hello there..
I have been job hunting for the past week and after sending out a few resumes I finally got called for an interview! I won't say where but what I can say is that it's a hotel. Hehe.. After I got the call I immediately lifted Sophie up and did a Happy Feet Penguin dance. "Yay! Mama got called for an interview Sophie! One feet already in the door! If mama get the job mama can buy you better things, not worry about the rent or buying your milk. Can buy makeup...," I sang to Sophie..

Then when I finally calmed down something hit me like a ton of bricks.. I won't be able to spend as much time with Baby Sophie anymore! Oh tidaaakkkk! I knew this day would come. The day when I would have to send Little Sophie to a nursery in the care of strangers and will only be able to see her in the evenings. I won't be the first one to notice if she does something new, and will only be able to spend 4 to 5 waking hours with her (maybe even less if I have to work OT) Oh, my aching heart! *Can you hear my heart breaking and the violins playing in the background?*

I literally sat down and wept and another litany began. "Ala Sophie.. Kalo mama kerja sudah nda la mama dapat tengo Sophie ketawa2 and senyum2 selalu ni.. Nda la mama dengar Sophie goo goo or see you focusing your attention so seriously at your tiny fist as often as I'd like.. Nda la mama dapat..", and it went on and on and on.. Sophie looked at me with a puzzled look on her face.. Frowning ni, macam dia bingung napa mama dia kejap ketawa, kejap nangis? *Pedahal sama jak macam perangai dia.. Hehe..*

Then she smiled and squealed at me and I literally felt as if she said,"Ah, mama ni. Nothing to worry bah, I'll be fine". I started to laugh and cry at the same time. Yes, she will be alright Insya Allah.. Amin.. My baby girl is strong and brave and as her mama I have to be just as strong and brave. Baru layak jadi her mama kan?

Part of me is half hoping that I would get the job while the other half is selfishly hoping that I won't. However, deep in my heart I know that getting the job is for the best. That as long as I work with a sincere heart to support my baby girl, the shorter time we get to spend together won't matter too much because Allah will keep both of us in each other's heart and that she is still my little precious gem at the end of the day no matter what. InsyaAllah, Amin..

Aduh, emosi pula punya post ni kali kan? Nangis2 kunun sy dalam CC type ni post tau. Sy rasa ni orang sebelah sy ingat sy ni tengah gaduh ma boypren atau baru break ni. Hahaha.. Lap punya lap air mata, abis sleeve baju hitam sy kena smear BB Cream. Great... Story of my life.. Huhu.. Lain kali sila bawa lappy dan guna wifi okay Phy. Walaupun orang di sebelah ingat ko gila sebab emo2 saturang, at least free tu Internet usage. *Geleng2 kepala* Sigh!

Anyway, this is all for now people. Will update more on how the interview went. Cheers!

Love,
Phoebe

Long Time No See...

Hello peeps..
Long time no see... I have been on a 1 week hiatus because I went back to my hometown during that time and despite having more time on my hands to laze about *cause Sophie was being fully dotted on by my mom* the line was just too crappy for me to post anything.

Anyway, in case you didn't know I have a beauty blog that has been lying dormant for some time. I want to start doing some beauty related post again and need your opinion on whether I should shut down my beauty blog and do beauty post here on this blog or continue to maintain both blogs? Your feed back is most appreciated.  ^^

Oh, some Sophie updates. She has now 'found' her voice and is gurgling and babbling all day. It's so funny and cute to see her babbling at her fist and everything she sees. Sometimes I feel like she is trying to talk to me. Sophie is starting to suck her fingers too. I read that it's normal and shouldn't be stopped because it's a way for babies to self soothe themselves. I am still unsure of whether to let that habit be or curb it.

She is also smiling so much now. She's such a cheerful little thing. Except when she's hungry or is startled that is. That's when her Dragon side starts roaring. Hopefully those powerful vocal chords of hers will be a blessing to her one day. InsyaAllah, Amin.. Hehe..

Last but not least, Sophie has now become a jie jie (big sister)! No,no, no.. I haven't had another child but my cousin did. Welcome to the world baby Atheliya Zilli (sy eja hentam2 jak ni okay, karang sy kasi betul bila sy sudah tau spelling sebenar.. Hehe..) She's such a little thing. Looking at Atheliya made me miss Sophie when she was a new born BUT at the same time I am glad that Sophie has grown and is stronger now with a few milestones under her little belt. Does that make any sense? Hehe..

That's all for now. Have a great start to your week peeps! ^^

Love,
Phoebe

Tu Lah, Len Kali Menipu Lagi..

Hello hello..
Harap kamurang suma sihat. Yang nda sihat tu, get well soon okay.
Untuk pengetahuan kamu, kawan kamu si Phy ni adalah insan yang pelupa bila masuk bab2 makan ubat. Paling useless la orang bilang. Kalo Dr cakap makan 1 bijik ubat 4 kali sehari, hari pertama jak sy berusaha dengan gigih untuk makan ubat on time. In 3 days time makan 4 bijik ubat sekali sehari la jadinya. Memang teruk.

Untuk dijadikan cerita, waktu sy dalam pantang dulu, sy lambat makan ubat cina yang bikin pecah darah dan buang angin sebab nurse di KKIA larang makan ubat2 macam tu. Kononnya, bikin tambah tinggi sakit Jaundice baby. Apa lagi, beta pun gumbira juga lah sikit sebab beta kan paling lembap when it comes to taking meds kan. Sudah la kena makan hari2 for 30 days. Adoi... Confirm 100 hari baru habis.

Selepas anak yg genap 1 bulan, sy pindah. Daripada 3 jenis ubat cina tu, 1 jenis tu sy belum buka pun cuma sy tau, ubat ni bersalut lilin. Mummy sy pernah cerita,dulu pantang dia simple jak. Ubat yang dia makan pun yg jenis berlilin. Oleh sebab sy berniat untuk makan ubat tu bila sy sampai at my new place, I asked her how did she ate her pills (the one yang ada lilin), and she said that she just chewed it.

A month later my mummy asked me, have I taken the Chinese meds? Not wanting to be scolded I decided to tell a white lie and said yes. I felt bad and 2 weeks later *yes, it took me that long, even while feeling guilty.. sigh!* which was a week ago, I decided to finally take the Chinese pills.

The pills.. 

 10 pills per box, individually packed in boxes..

Wax..

As you can see in the 3rd picture above the pills are enveloped in a ball of wax. I felt unsure on how to take it. Do I really want to chew it like my mum did? Do I want swallow it with water? But then it's huge! wanted to ask my mum again but how can I when I've told her I had started taking them? Huhuhu... *Ah, the consequences of lying*. I decided to try and chew it and tentatively bit into it but found that it's hard. 

Bite marks.. Haha...

Then I had this idea of cutting it up into segments then swallowing the sections with water. However when I tried to cut it up, it suddenly split..

Laaaaa.....!!!! Rupanyaaa...!!!

Slightly larger than the other 2 types of pills...

Bahahaha... Speechless.. That's what you get when we tell little white lies. They come back to haunt us and bite us in the behind when we least expect it. Padan muka kan? Len kali menipu lagi.. Huhu.. Moral of the story? Honesty is the best policy!

Thanks for taking the time to visit my blog.

Love,

Phoebe..

Pressures Of Motherhood..

Ndamau Keluar Rumah Sudah La...

Hello,

Petang tadi waktu melayan permata pujaan hatiku Sophia nangis sampai ndak keluar suara (cranky, mungkin dia rasa nda sedap badan lepas kena jarum) terdengar bunyi kecoh di rumah sebelah. Suara perempuan dewasa teriak2, lepas tu hempas2 barang dan suara dua budak nangis2 sambil panggil "Ibu!" balik2. Boleh dengar ni apa yang dorang cakap. *Bukan sengaja sy mendengar gia, suara dorang tu yang kuat betul. Lebih kuat dari si Sophia teriak lepas sudah menggandakan kuasa Boboboi dia untuk tarik nafas*. 

Terdiam sy sekejap. Terbayang pula segala2 drama Melayu yang sy pernah tengo dari darjah 4 sampai tingkatan 3 *belum ada Astro lagi daa masa tu*. Berpikir juga ni, apa kes? Anak2 dia tu meraung2 "Ibu!" sebab mama durang merajuk jak atau sebab mama dorang pengsan-sebab-terlampau-marah-bila-bawa-pigi-hospital-baru-tau-ada-penyakit-yang-susah-mau-kasi-ubat-lepas-tu-anak2-dia-menyesal-lawan-cakap-dia? Sorry, bukan menyumpah, tapi ter-imagine sebab mama dorang tiba2 senyap.

Last2 redah juga lah dorang. Baru ja sy mo hembus nafas lega, tiba2 sedar something. Rupanya kalo cakap kuat sikit pun jiran satu blok blh dengar pula. Oh noooooo!!! Menyesal, menyesal seribu kali dua bahagi empat campur lima! Kenapa? Sebab kawan kamu si Phy ni suka menyanyi. Kalau suara macam Mariah Carey tu ndapa juga tapi ni lebih kepada Maria Si Penjual Kari. 

Adoooiiii.. Apa punya soi daaaa... Sudah lah kawan kamu si Phy ni kuat berimaginasi. Siap terbayang nyanyi lagu Enya di Caesars Palace, lagu Adele di Royal Albert Hall, etc. Hm, memang padan la. Entah2 hari2 sy kena maki jiran ni sebab malar jak buat konsert nda berbayar. Punya la hai bikin malu. Nda mau keluar rumah sudah la sy. Kalo ya pun keluar rumah dan terserempak ma jiran, sy tunduk gaya alaf Bawang Merah Bawang Putih jak la. 

First Experience: KKIA Kota Kinabalu

Hello all,
Today I went to KKIA *Klinik Kesihatan Ibu dan Anak ye tuan2 dan puan2, bukan Kota Kinabalu International Airport* Kota Kinabalu as baby Sophia is due to get her Triple Antigen jab (2nd month). I had planned to register and follow up there as well. When I arrived at KKIA KK it looked pretty quiet. It was only until I stepped in that I saw it was busy as a bee hive.

I went to the counter to register and they asked me where am I living in? I told them and they referred me to another KKIA. I tried reasoning with them because as someone who doesn't have my own transport, I can hardly expect boo to drive me all the way to the KKIA they suggested when it's almost time for him to go to work. It just wasn't possible. In the end, they relented.

I noticed that each room is named after places in Sabah such as Manukan, Tugu, etc. I was referred to room no 2. I didn't have to wait long and the nurse who attended to me didn't ask too many questions. The only thing is they tried hard to convince me to go to another KKIA for upcoming monthly. Their reasoning is that the meds in their KKIA is already allocated for babies their area. If they give my baby immunization shots at their KKIA, then a baby in their own jurisdiction wouldn't be able to get their shots.

So I asked them, how do you know exactly how many babies are in your jurisdiction? "Oh, we look at the birth rate in KK" says the nurse. Okay, fair enough. However there's just something about that kind of reasoning that doesn't make sense to me. Maybe I'm being a smarty-pants but while I understand that KK covers a lot of ground up to the point where they have to divide into a few areas and set up KKIA's in those areas so that KKIA KK won't be swamped, I have to ask:

If you rely on the birth-rate, what about those who are staying within KK's jurisdiction but went back to their hometown (let's say Ranau) to give birth and would follow up at KKIA KK? Their baby's birth would then be counted in Ranau's jurisdiction not KK's. The numbers wouldn't match up and their meds wouldn't be enough anyways right?

The smarty pants tahap Boboboi in me also thinks that surely they would order more stock for medicine rather than order just enough to cover the birth rate in KKIA KK's area. Surely. I mean, that's the basic stock-keeping right? If your demand is 30, you order 35 or 40, maybe even 50 just in case. So nda la bah sampai ada kes baby nda dapat kena immunize sebab tiada stock ubat. If they really ordered just enough meds based on the birth rate of KK, I would be amazed at their lack of foresight.

Aaaaannnnyywwaaayyy, on the plus side everything was fast (maybe they wanted to get rid of me ASAP, who knows) and in 30 minutes I'm out the door with baby Sophie immunized and clutching a bottle of liquid pain killer for babies as the Triple Antigen shot will make her feverish. Huhu.. *Bracing self to weather the fever storm* All in all, they were very efficient and none of the nurses were rude. I was happy with their service.

Thanks for taking the time to read this entry.

Love,
Phoebe.

Hangers

Hello there,
I hate hangers. Okay, maybe I shouldn't use such a strong word on something that is helping me dry my laundry but seriously I find them extremely annoying.

First of all they are always getting caught up with each other. When you try to pull one out, either it won't budge or a whole bunch would fall out. The best part is, it always does this when you are in a hurry or when your hands-are-full-but-you-need-just-one-more-hanger-so-you-try-getting-it-with-your-teeth.

Darn it..

This has lead me to wishing that I am living in a house with a compound so that I could have a clothes line to to hang my laundry properly instead of in an apartment where I have to rely on hangers to ensure that my laundry wouldn't have to lie crumpled in a wet heap too long. Sigh! 

Am in a petty mood, can you tell?

Love,

Phoebe

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Kena Block?

Hello,
Sy ndak tau la kenapa tapi dari semalam sy nda dapat update status sy dalam Facebook guna laptop sy. Kalo guna HTC sy boleh pula. Heran oh. Bukan setakat nda dapat update status, 'Like', comment, message and friend request pun nda bulih.

Bila sy click 'Help' dan godek2 options dalam 'Help' tu, sy start suspect yang sy kena block oleh Facebook sebab ada orang report sy. Ciri2 yang kena describe sama jak ni dengan apa yang sy alami. Tapi sy ndada pun message2 orang atau balik2 send friend request ngan sepa2. Kalo sy ada buat perangai crazy stalker blh lg la sy terima yang sy kena block.

Sy ndada kena bagi notis atau message pun dari Facebook yang sy ni kena block, sy cuma suspect jak. Kalo betul, sy rasa sy tau sepa insan wangi hati yang buat report tu. Kalo nda betul Ya Allah ampunkan la dosa sy sebab bersangka buruk.

Sy harap juga la yang masalah Facebook sy ni sekadar masalah kena block dan bukan something else yang unknown. At least kalo kena block ni, keadaannya sementara jak. Only for a few hours or days. Sepatutnya lah. Tapi 1 tahun sama dengan 365 days, boleh kah dorang kira itu sebagai 'a few days'? Harap inda la kan. As much as I hate to admit it, I love Facebook. Haha..

Anyway, post ni sekadar luahan. Terima kasih sebab sudi baca... ^^

Salam Sayang,
Phoebe

Pictures Galore

Hello..
Initially I had wanted to do a Wordless Wednesday but I find it impossible to stop myself from typing captions for the photos. These are some of the pics of when I was preggers until delivery and some of Sophie's.

A word of caution before we proceed. There are images of my surgery so if you have a queasy stomach, I suggest that you skip this post. You will also be exposed to photos of me in my haggard, unmade-up face with my bulbous Rodolph-esque red nose that I had acquired during my pregnancy. Proceed with caution. Hehe..

A very preggy me. Was about 38 to 39 weeks at this time.

In the Delivery Suite and being dripped with Pitocin.

 The surgery

Sophia Mikhayla was born!

Wrapped in her pinky blanket

Sophie incubated. Kind of. Under the warm rays of light to keep her warm..

 Wheeled in from the Operating Theater. I was shaking like a leaf in the storm.

Still shaking and was unable to hold Sophia. They held her close to me and Sophia turned to rest her cheek against mine.

Held her for the first time. The sweetest feeling ever..

Mama love you sayang...

Sophia's tag..

Sophie, newborn..

Sophie, less than a week old (notice how big her romper is for her?)

8 days old..

Around 3 weeks old. See how fast she is filling in her romper? 

Almost a month old

 One month old!

Sophie at six and a half weeks. Awal2 sudah posing kasi keluar lidah. Ish2 anak mama ni.. Haha..

Some of the photos of myself are pretty ghastly and so I leave you some reminders that yours truly was not born looking like that...

Lots of Love,

Phoebe