Evolusi Cinta Monyet..

Hello..
Kalo sy tengo sekarang ni cara budak2 sekolah bercintan cintun sangat banyak beza dengan zaman sy dulu *Chewah, ayat 'zaman sy dulu' tu membuatkan diri beta terasa amat tua sekali*. Jadi mari kita lihat evolusi cinta monyet dari tahun 90-an sehingga kini yer..

Cara Berkenalan
Tahun 90-an hingga 2002: Face to face/kirim salam melalui kawan la cara yang paling selalu digunakan. Ada juga yang kirim surat secara rahsia. Secret Admirer la bah tu kunun.
Tahun 2003-2006: Rata-rata orang sudah ada handphone masa ni walaupun sekadar modal Nokia 3310. Jadi bila mau berkenalan tu samada minta tolong kawan dapatkan nombor handphone si Gadis atau sendiri yang pergi minta.
Tahun 2007-Kini: Apa susah, Facebook kan ada.. Jangan cakap cewek lain sekolah atau lain daerah, cewek dari lain negara pun boleh kenal. Minta saja add sebagai kawan. Beres. Kalo request nda kena terima pun, eleh, bukannya sekampung. No harm done.

Cara Komunikasi
Tahun 90-an hingga 2002: Pakai telepon rumah jak. Pai parents pun heran napa bil telepon beganda2 dari besa. Si Gadis pula siap tarik telepon tu masuk bilik supaya ada privasi kunu. Parents yang sporting geleng kepala. Parents yang strict cabut pintu bilik. Haha.. Paling tidak pun guna public phone, sampai terbelit-belit bah tu wayar phone terlampau feeling. Kalo di sekolah, passing2 surat sinta guna posmen yang nda bertauliah. Kadang2 kena posmen nda amanah tu siap kena baca lagi tu surat. Cilanat betul punya kawan.
Tahun 2003-2006: Majoriti ada handphone jadi SMS la jadi pilihan komunikasi. Murah kan banding call. Boleh SMS anytime, sampai larut malam pun ndapa. Berusaha gigih lagi tu cari SMS yang lucu2. Semua demi membuat si Dia senyum. Kalo sudah abis kredit tu pandai la kenal dengan public phone. Lilit2 wayar telepon lagi.
Tahun 2007-Kini: Banyak pilihan sudah lor. Pakai handphone boleh, Facebook pun boleh. Siapa yg parents boleh sponsor iPhone atau Berry Hitam tu lagi la banyak pilihan. Dengan Pingchatnya, Linenya, Whatsappnya dan lain2.

Cara Komunikasi Hubungan Jarak Jauh
Tahun 90-an hingga 2002: Bila dua2 pasangan pergi sambung belajar surat la jadi pengubat rindu. Tulis pakai tangan okay. Siap ada tulisan yang kabur2 gara2 kembang bekas kena titisan air mata lagi. Tulisan dikasi cantik2, kertas pun yang wangi2. Kalo sampul comel berbunga2 tu confirm dari girlpren. Kalo salah satu jak pasangan tu yang pergi lanjutkan pelajaran ha, sanggup la beratur panjang2 untuk guna public phone dengan kocek penuh duit syiling *gigih tu kumpul duit syiling. kalah tokey kedai runcit*. Sampai seluar terlondeh sebelah gara2 duit syiling terlampau berat pun nda kisah. Bila ada duit lebih sikit tu benda pertama dibeli kad public phone. Ubat gigi belakang kira.
Tahun 2003-2006: Sama juga lah, biasanya SMS atau call. Siapa yang rajin pergi cc tu boleh la guna email. Friendster pun ada sudah. Kalau yang celik IT tu boleh video call. Tapi dalam tempoh ni video call masih jarang digunakan sebab dua2 pasangan perlu ada webcam.
Tahun 2007-Kini: Ndapayah cakap la kan. Email, video call, Skype, Facebook, SMS, MMS, telepon, etc. Belum campur apps yang ada dalam Berry Hitam/Android/iPhone. Terlampau banyak pilihan sampai kadang2 nda terasa pun rindu bila berjauhan. Rasa macam pasangan tu sentiasa dekat.

Gambar
Tahun 90-an hingga 2002: Uiii.. Susah tau mau dapat gambar pasangan zaman dulu2. Maklumlah, bukan suma orang ada kamera. Siapa yang tiada tu merayu ngan kawan yang ada kamera mintak gambar dia sorang. Kamera dulu2 lagi bukan boleh terus tengo hasilnya kan. Tunggu roll filem habis baru boleh pergi cuci gambar. Sebab tu orang dulu2 nda cerewet. Asal ada gambar yang okay untuk bagi pasangan da cukup. Kalo hubungan jarak jauh tu siap ada penerangan lagi ditulis di belakang gambar. Di sampul surat tu ditulis 'DO NOT BEND'. Takut gambar dia rosak.
Tahun 2003-2006: Zaman camera digital. Ni senang sikit, boleh terus tengo hasil gambarnya. Tapi sebab itu juga la ada sesetengah orang jadi cerewet tahap gaban. Rambut kena tiup salah angle sikit mo suruh amik gambar lagi sekali. Tangan salah position sikit minta amik gambar balik. Sensara si tukang amik gambar. Menyesal seribu kali volunteer. Mau bagi pasangan gambar tu pula antara pergi cuci gambar/burn dalam CD atau buat 'movie' dengan Windows Movie Maker baru burn di CD dan kirim. Pendrive sudah ada masa ni tapi mahal. 218MB pun mau RM100.
Tahun 2007-Kini: Sekarang zaman DSLR. Siap ada editing software yang canggih. Jerawat seribu boleh erase, mata merah macam zombie pun boleh kasi bagus, etc. Mau bagi gambar ngan pasangan nda susah sudah, transfer jak masuk pendrive. Kirim pendrive sekali pun ndapa. Besalah, sekarang ni pendrive sudah murah. 8GB pun puluh2 jak harganya. Paling nda pun upload pergi Facebook dan tag si Cinta.

Lagu
Tahun 90-an hingga 2002: Dulu kalo mau bagi lagu ngan pasangan sanggup dengar radio berjam2 untuk 'dub' lagu2 kegemaran pasangan/lagu jiwang dari band seperti Westlife, BSB, Hanson, The Moffatts, etc. Siap maki2 lagi tu DJ bila DJ tu masih bercakap bila lagu tu dah mula atau start bercakap sedangkan lagu belum habis. Sy ingat juga dulu bila ada perayaan di sekolah macam Hari Guru, senior2 sy selalu buat song request. Masa tu la pasangan amik kesempatan mau dedicate2 lagu. Ada juga Secret Admirer yang  dedicate untuk si Dia yang diintai selama ni. Awww....
Tahun 2003-2006: Zaman ni adalah perantaraan dub lagu dengan kaset kosong dan burn lagu dalam CD. Yang mem'burn' lagu dalam CD pun tidak kurang payah walaupun mungkin tidak seteruk dub lagu dalam kaset. Mau cari lagu Mp3 tu yang susah. Terpaksa cari downloader yang bagus dan tunggu berpuluh minit untuk dowload lagu. Tapi semua itu nda penting, yang penting maksud lagu tu sampai ngan si Cinta.
Tahun 2007-Kini: Sekarang ni memang senang la mau kongsi apa2 lagu. Dari smartphone to smartphone pun boleh, guna jak Whatsapp. Share videoclip original dari Youtube di Facebook dan tag si Dia pun boleh. Mau senarai semua cara sampai bisuk nda abis.

Kesimpulannya, zaman sekarang ni memang banyak kemudahan yang boleh mengeratkan sesuatu hubungan tapi somehow, sy rasa zaman dulu2 lagi romantik. Walaupun setakat cinta monyet, pasangan perlu kerja lebih keras untuk mengekalkan hubungan mereka dan itu membuatkan mereka lebih sabar serta menghargai pasangan dan hubungan tersebut. Kan, kan, kan...

Itu jak la untuk kali ni. Wassalam.

Salam Sayang,
Phoebe

Do You Believe In Horoscopes?

Hello peeps..
Yes, yes, long time no see. I'm so sorry *Sob sob* (TT). It's just that the Internet has been really slow lately and I've missed my weekly indulgence at the cc due to being unwell and lack of transport. Story of my life.

Anyway since the Year of the Water Dragon came around, there has been a kind of frenzy surrounding it. This year is said to be a good and prosperous one and it seemed that wedding venues and hospitals are being booked to the max in China for weddings and childbirth. *Don't take my word for it though because I heard this from a friend* 

All these predictions of good prosperity and health has made me think about horoscopes and how it can affect people *such as making couples working hard at making babies. The men are surely smiling from ear to ear from now until the month of March 2012*.

Are you the type of person who religiously believes in, pores over your Lilian Too Feng Shui handbook/English horoscope manual and let it dictate every move you make? *"Oh, sorry my love but I can't go on a date with you tonight. My Venus is tip-toeing over the Milky Way and it's bad luck for me to be around people for the next 12 hours"* Or are you a disbeliever who thinks that horoscopes are a waste of time and that anyone who believes in it is a fool and a half?

For me personally, I like to think myself as being in the middle. This is simply because I feel that there are uncanny truths about the characteristics of my sign (I'm a Cancer and Tiger by the way) and some predictions can be spot-on. I am guilty of reading my horoscope at the back portion of my magazines and there are still times when I compare my sign with my crush's *Oh, Horatio Caine!* or a significant other's. Juvenile, I know. *Stop giggling, you do it too and you know it* (^^)

I always take the good *"Yay, it says that money will come rolling starting in March!"* or the coincidences *"No wonder I'm in a bad mood the past few days, it's written in the stars!"* and reject the bad *"What, it says that I will lose money in an investment? Pish posh! This is cr*p"*. I don't let it control my life though. Or at least I try not to let it. Seriously.

I do feel that horoscopes can help give people hope in their lives, especially Chinese Horoscopes with it's yearly (instead of monthly) forecasts. It enables people to have something to look forward to. As long as it's not supposed to be your bad year that is.

So regardless of whether you are a hard-core believer of horoscopes, an equally hard-core disbeliever, or even a neutral person like yours truly *cough*, I wish you all Gong Xi Fa Chai and cheers to a prosperous year ahead. Wassalam.

Lots of Love,
Phoebe

Becoming A Mualaf

Hello peeps..
Read this post only if you have an open mind and if you are mature enough to comment respectfully.

I was born into a non-muslim family. When I turned 18 I choose to become a Muslim. No, I did not become a Muslim because of a Muslim boyfriend as a lot of people seem to believe. I became a Muslim because I believe in the teachings of the Islamic religion.

My journey to becoming a Muslim was neither a short nor easy one. It started when I was 15 and I had a lot of discussions and debates with my Muslim friends on issues that I did not understand about in Islam. By 17 I was feeling lost and confused. On one hand here is a religion that I was born with, that I had never dreamed I would leave. On the other hand here is Islam, a religion that I could relate to and understand so much better.

I deserted my quest on learning about Islam because I figured that maybe I was being weak in my former religion because I had not done my part, because I did not go to worship God enough, because I was under the influence of the Devil. So I threw myself into my former religion's activities. I went and worshiped God every week. I became a facilitator for religious activities, etc. Nothing worked.

In the end I gave up. I decided to be an atheist so that I wouldn't feel so torn anymore. By the time I was 18 years old something happened that made me unable to deny the truth (in my eyes) of the Islamic religion and I

Phy Penat Dan Kurang Pintar

Hello..
Lama sy nda update blog oh kan. Minggu lepas sy sibuk betul dengan macam2 urusan. Minggu ni pula sy giat exercise mata dan jari dengan baca novel dan berusaha jadi jutawan coklat. Fuh jangan kamu, bersungguh2 sy berusaha ni. Empat sudah kilang sy, dua kedai dan aset berjuta2. Sila jangan jeles. Usaha tangga kejayaan. Hahaha..

Hari ni kan, sy rasa sedih la. Sedih sebab sy ni kurang pintar. Kenapa sy cakap sy kurang pintar? Sebab walaupun otak sy tau yg sy hanya mampu bawa seekor kuda ke sumber air tapi sy tidak mampu paksa kuda tu minum kalo dia ndamau, namun dalam hati sy *tanpa sy sedari* fikir yang sy boleh pujuk kuda tu untuk minum air tersebut. Yang penting sy banyak bersabar dan banyak bagi dorongan. Namun sayang seribu sayang, sangkaan hati sy itu meleset sama sekali.

*Kalo kamu rasa bingung dengan cerita kuda di atas, apa boleh buat lah ah.. Ndapa lah, sy sendiri faham..*

Sy juga rasa penat. Penat dengan beberapa keadaan, penat dengan sesetengah orang, penat dengan sikap2 dan amalan tertentu serta amat amat amat penat dengan harapan palsu dan janji2 yang tidak kesampaian. Tidak lupa juga penat dengan isu2 yang sering berbangkit tapi tiada penghujungnya walaupun sudah dinasihat, dimarah dan dipujuk 1982634546372882723536474 kali.

Hati dan perasaan sy rasa berat sangat. Nda mampu sy tahan air mata kesedihan dan kekecewaan mengalir. *Uiseh, iye keeerr* Hari2 lain, boleh pula sy pujuk diri sendiri. Tapi kali ni amat berbeza. I wonder why? Maybe sebab selama ni sy rasa macam masih ada harapan. Namun, kali ni sudah jelas dan nyata keadaan tidak akan berubah jadi tiada guna sy tipu diri sendiri lagi. There's nothing more for me to hold on to and my hopes are fading away..

Doi.. Sudah2 la tu kan.. Sedih2 pun tiada untung juga. Nangis sampai migrain pun tidak mengubah apa2.

Sy rasa sy mau buat kerja rumah banyak2 la. Supaya sy tiada masa fikir lagi benda ni semua. Supaya bila sy ampai kepala sy di bantal malam2, sy terus tertidur. Nda la sy sempat melayan blues sambil buang air mata. Kan? Musti mum sy buat Happy Feet penguin dance. Hehe..

Tu jak la untuk kali ni. Siow, berduka lara pula sy kali ni. Jangan silap, ini bukan post minta simpati tapi luahan semata2. Wassalam.

Salam sayang,
Phoebe

Breaking Up Is Hard To Do-Part 2

Hello peeps..
I never intended to make a 2nd part  to my previous post but there is one element to a breakup that has kept going around and around in my mind. It bothered me that I didn't highlight it previously so that is what I'll be going into detail in this post and that element is the ex's family.

If you had been going out with your partner for years, most probably you have met The Parents and gotten to know your partner's siblings and a few relatives. You might even be close to some members of your partner's family. When you break up with said partner, inevitably it will be as if you have broken up with the family too and there will be a double sense of loss for you.

Some say that the break up won't matter, that is between you and your ex, nothing to do with the family and that you can still carry on as usual and be close with them.

I beg to differ.

Although it is somewhat true that the breakup is primarily between you and your ex, it still has something to do with his/her family. Think about it, while you're still hurting badly from the split it will be the only thing that you can think and talk about. If you meet with your ex's cousin for example, would you be able to steer clear of the topic? I don't think so, and when you do talk about it *and surely you wouldn't be singing your ex praises*, you will be putting said cousin in a spot. To agree with you is to turn on his/her own family member. To disagree would be adding insult to your injury.

On the other hand if you manage *with superhuman effort* not to bring the subject of the breakup up, it would still be awkward because it would be like trying to ignore the huge bull elephant that's in the room. Conversation would be a pain and both of you would feel like running away in opposite directions.

So you see dear readers, it would not go down well.

So here are some Do's and Don'ts when it come to your ex's family:

Do
-If you run into them, be pleasant but also be brief. Get away ASAP before you start crying on their shoulder.
-If they bring the subject of your breakup, don't start insulting your ex. Just say that you're disappointed but it's over (politely of course), change the subject and/or make an excuse to leave.
-Stay away from the family during the 1st 6 months of your breakup.

Don't
-Discuss the breakup with them. Please.
-Discuss the breakup AND expect them to take your side. It is after all your ex's decision to break up with you, not theirs.
-Ask them to talk to your ex on your behalf.*This includes making the family member a 'postman' or 'postwoman' for letters to your ex* They won't make your ex's change his/her mind. It's also unfair for both the family member and your ex. Moreover, you might make them fight among themselves. .
-Attend your ex's family functions even if you are invited by the rest of the family. They might just invite you only out of courtesy but do not expect you to show up or they may 'mean well'. Whatever their reasons are, it's best to decline.


I hope you have found this useful especially for those who are going through a breakup. See you in the next post. Wassalam..

Lots of Love,
Phoebe

Bila Phy Mau Kahwin?

Hello...
Musti ada yang baca entry ni ingat yang sy mau umumkan bila sy mau kahwin kan? Siow, sorry dan minta maaf ya kawan2. Sangkaan anda tu meleset sama sekali. Post ni sebenarnya is about why I'm not married yet actually. Haha..

Tahun lalu merupakan tahun di mana berpuluh2 lemon kawan beta mengikat tali pertunangan dan tidak kurang juga yang melafaz "I do" dan "Aku terima nikahnya Polan binti Polan.." Kalau sy cakap sy tidak kisah, tidak terasa walau sikit pun tipu la kan. Pinocchio pun sudah lama panjang hidung sampai pekan Keningau. Terasa seolah2 semua orang tengah berebut2 naik bot penyelamat, sy jak yang tertinggal atas kapal Titanic sebab nda cukup syarat *sob sob..* Sudah la begitu, banyak lagi yang tanya2,"Bila ko mau kahwin ni?" *Amboi... Mentang2 la ko sudah tunang/kahwin gatal mulut ko ha menanya. Sumbat dalam almari baru tau..*

Namun bila sy tolak ego ke tepi dan renung dalam2 sedalam laut paling dalam di dunia *berapa kali punya dalam daaaa..* dan tanya diri sy,"Kalo la sy dilamar hari ini, sy terima kah?" Jawabannya kawan2 adalah, "Tidaaaakkkk!!! Tidaaakkkk!!!"*Panjat pokok kayu, panic*. Ya, sy takut sebenarnya mau kahwin. Sebab kahwin ni adalah sesuatu yang sangat indah, sangat pahit, sangat mencabar, amat berat tanggungjawabnya dan memerlukan kesabaran yang tinggi.*Banyak lagi tapi kalo mau sebut suma tahun depan pun nda abis* Sy tidak pasti kalu sy mampu untuk memikul semua itu. *Chewah, rendah diri kunu*

Selain daripada takut diri belum mampu dari segi mental emosi untuk kahwin, sy juga takut sebab banyak sepupu sepapat dan sahabat handai yang telah melalui penceraian. Cerita2 diorang pula punya lah ngeri. Ada yang dipukul, ada yang dikhianati. Ada yang anak dibawa lari ke negara lain, bertahun2 baru dapat jumpa. Itu pun anak2 tu sudah kena brainwash oleh si ex husband untuk benci si isteri. Ada yang baru kahwin tapi sudah diduakan.

Dramanya nda ubah macam dari novel cintan cintun Melayu yang mampu buat student2 feeling lebih2 *student2 la yang selalu baca novel2 macam ni. Dua novel habis baru selak satu muka surat buku Ekonomi* sampai menangis teresak2 sambil makan Maggi. Pendek kata, sy takut dikhianati. Lelaki zaman sekarang nda sudah macam dulu. Kesetiaan tidak tetap, rasa sayang mudah beralih dan kurang sabarnya. Berjauhan sikit sudah cari lain, sudah kahwin pun masih bergaul tanpa batas dan sempadan dengan wanita lain. Sang wanita pun ada juga penyakit macam ni tapi tidak sebanyak lelaki.

Bila dengar semua ini, rasa macam terbantut pula hasrat mau kahwin. Tawar hati. Tapi ini mungkin sebab belum sampai lagi seru untuk sy kahwin. Who knows kan, soal jodoh di tangan Allah SWT. Kalo sudah sampai masa, sy lari sejauh mana pun, peluk tiang teriak2,"Ndamaaauuu!!! Ndamauuuuuuu!!!" pun kahwin juga jawabnya. Cuma sy harap bila sy kahwin nanti biarlah atas sebab yang baik, dengan cara yang baik dan dengan someone yang ikhlas dan boleh didik sy. Amin. Sila2 doakan ya.. Hehe...

Cheers and Wassalam..

Salam Sayang,
Phoebe

Lol, GBU Dan Pemendekkan Lain Yang Buat Phy Pening Kepala

Hello,

Di zaman teknologi yang serba canggih ini pasti kita selalu berdepan dengan pelbagai pemendekkan kata2 dalam komunikasi elektronik seperti SMS, Chat, Im dan sebagainya. *Chewah, opening banyak punya skema tahap karangan BM* Banyak perkataan yang dipendekkan ni senang untuk kita faham tapi kan kali ni kawan kamu si Phy akan kongsi perkataan2 pendek atau bahasa Jawanya, abbreviation, yang pernah buat kepala otak sy pening untuk faham.

Lol
Setiap kali kawan ckp something funny, musti letak Lol di hujung. Kadang2 buat ayat nda lucu pun dia letak lol juga. Lol ni apa hah? Lollipop kah? Last2, sy nda tahan dengan ke'lol'an yang menghantui diri ini jadi sy pun tanya dia:

Me: Apa bah maksud lol sebenarnya?
Kawan: Lol ni maksudnya Laughing Out Loud lah. Itu pun ndatau kah? Lol.

Kurang asam punya kawan. Siap lol lg di hujung explaination dia. Macam hantu. Nasib dia jauh, kalo depan muka sy sumbat tu mulut ngan limau asam dan kasi masuk dia dalam lubang tandas.


GBU/MGBU
Ya ampuuunn... Ini lah yang paling bikin malu. Sumpah, bertahun2 sy ndatau apa maksud menatang ni sampai lah last year. Heran bah sy, asal wish apa2 musti end dengan GBU.


"Merry Christmas 2005. GBU.."


"Happy New Year 2006.. MGBU ya"


"Happy Birthday lalink. GBU"


Apa bah maksud GBU ni?!! *Stress lagi tu kunun tarik2 rambut* Gobuk (beruk) kah? Aih, tapi takkan lah lepas wish sy yang baik2, yang sweet2 terus hina sy gobuk pula kan? *Sampai ati.. Sob sob...* Walaupun hati ini terkinja2 ingin tau dan ingin tanya apa itu GBU, tapi ego kawan kamu si Phy ni meronta2 nda mau menanya. *Sanggup kan sesat jalan* Iya lah, sebab suma org pun ber"GBU"2 sesama sendiri, kalo sy tanya, ketara lah ndatau. Kena ketawa pula kan. Jadi dengan gigihnya sy tetap cuba fikir sendiri.


Last2 dapat juga sy figure out apa jadah GBU ni. Dapat enlightenment la katakan. Bila finally dapat tu kan umpama minda yang gelap ini tiba2 diterangi 25 lampu kalimantang. Rupanya GBU ni GOD BLESS YOU! Rasa macam mau naik bangunan paling tinggi dan terjun. Kenapa lah beta ni bengap sangat?




ROTFL
Hadoi, in lagi apa ni? Macam bunyi hanjing tersedak pun ada. Ha, ini jarang betul sy jumpa tapi bila kawan sy (yang malar Lol tu) guna abbreviation ni sy nda sudah mau tanya dia. Nda juga sy mau berpikir bertahun2 baru dapat enlightenment. Jadi sy pun meligat kan jari jemari beta ni untuk bertanya ngan Mr Google. Mau tau apa maksud dia? *Yang nda mau tau sila tutup mata rapat2 okeh* Maksudnya Rolling On The Floor Laughing. Eleh, lawak la kunun tu sampai dia ketawa berguling atas lantai. Kin panas.


TQVM
Rasanya ini nda ramai yang ndatau sebab 'tq' ni memang semua orang pun tau. Kalo nda tau pendek umur. *Dui, mentang2 tau kan, berani la cakap yang ndatau tu pendek umur* First time sy nampak ni perkataan sy diam skejap. Part 'tq' tu sy sdah tau, part 'vm' tu yang sy kurang arif. Mujur lah kali ni sy terpikir juga apa maksud dia. *Nda sampai bertahun okay, 1 minit jak*  Maksudnya Thank You Very Much. Chewah, bangga ni. Kembang lobang hidung macam serobong asap.

Itu lah perkataan2 dipendekkan yang pernah membuat kepala hotak kawan kamu si Phy ni pening spinning suatu masa dulu. Hehe.. Tu belum campur lagi perkataan2 lain yang dipendekkan oleh mereka2 yang tidak bertauliah. Apa pun moga terhibur ngan post kali ni.

Cheers and wassalam..

Salam Sayang,
Phoebe

Goals for 2012

Hello peeps..
To be honest, I find it quite embarrassing to write down resolutions simply because I am absolutely, most utterly useless when it comes to keeping them. Huhu... I hadn't been planning on making one but I guess I could try to give it another shot this year only, I'm going to use the term 'goals' instead of 'resolutions' *How on earth are they different I do not know but somehow I just feel that they are not the same. Hehe*


My first goal is to be more patient. I seriously have a problem with this which ends up with me doing rash things and saying things that I shouldn't. So I hope that I will be able to harness some of this patience stuff as I will definitely need it for the years to come

My second goal is to lose 2KGs a month starting in April 2012 until I reach my goal weight of 55KG.

Next, I would like to aim to gain more knowledge about Islam. Islam involves every aspect a Muslim's life so I have so, so much to learn. Recent events have made me realize just how long I have lapsed in expanding my knowledge about my Faith and I would like to start again this year.

My fourth goal is to get a job, most probably starting in June 2012. I'm not sure yet what field that I would like to get into. I might go into banking or hotel. We'll see. Really keeping my fingers crossed about this because I heard that we might face economic recession this year *or are we already facing it?* and we all know how the job market *or rather, lack of it* is during recessions.

Lastly, my goal is to be an active blogger. It won't be easy though. With no electricity and limited Internet connection, it's a huge challenge. However, I will try my very best. I also plan to re-activate my beauty blog which has gathered dust last year. By the way, I have recently made a page on Facebook (Phyllicia Robert). Would really appreciate the 'Like's and support.

So this is all for now peeps. Enjoy your weekend especially those who are working. Cheers and wassalam.

Lots

Protest Depan, Himpun Kanan, Picket Kiri...

Hello... Sejak kebelakangan ni bnyk betul sy dgr di Malaysia ni rakyat terlibat dgn kegiatan rally,tunjuk perasaan dan picketing. Puncanya? Atas sebab tidak puas ati. Bila tidak puas hati picket. Bila sakit hepar ngan kerajaan, rally. Heran juga sy, kenapa baru2 ni banyak betul jadi benda mcm ni? Mungkin kah sebab PRU nda lama lagi jadi ini cara sesetengah rakyat Malaysia mau 'tunjuk taring'? ("Kalo kerajaan tidak selesaikan masalah ni, kami undi pembangkang!") Atau mungkin kah ini sudah menjadi hobi baru mereka?*Iya lah, bila tunjuk perasaan ni kuar tv kan? Femes skijap* Ha, kalo banyak kaler kuning tu musti kamu tau rally apa kan? Walaupun sy ni tidak sokong kegiatan2 mcm ni, sy sedar kadang2 extreme measures are needed to get attention. Tapi kan, cuba lah reserve it utk isu2 yang amat berat dan sangat2 penting. Baru ada impak. Ini tidak. Perkhidmatan bas tiada selama dua bulan pun mau picket. Weh, kampung kawan kamu si Phy ni bukan saja seumur-umur tiada perkhidmatan bas tau. Siap ndada elektrik, ndada air, jalan pun masih gravel nda berturap. Tiada la juga kami buat benda2 macam tu. Mahasiswa dan mahasiswi pun nda mau ketinggalan... Banyak keburukkan yang timbul bila buat keja2 protest ni. Pertamanya, ini akan memberi peluang kepada kuasa luar untuk cuba campur tangan dalam urusan negara terchenta kita. Alasannya nanti, Kerajaan Malaysia tidak mampu mentadbir negara sendiri. Ha, mau kah kamu negara yg perasan dirinya sebagai Polis Dunia menyibuk dalam urusan Malaysia? Percaya lah tuan2 dan puan2, mereka hanya menunggu masa saja untuk berbuat demikian. Keduanya, aktiviti2 tidak sihat ni memburukkan image Malaysia. Fikirkan la, apakah yg memberi sumbangan terbesar kepada ekonomi negara ni? Industri perlancongan bukan? Kalo malar jak rally kanan picket kiri, bukankah ia memberi impresi bahawa negara kita ni tidak aman dan tidak selamat? Ha, apa yg akan terjadi kepada industri perlancongan, perlaburan perniagaan dari luar negara dan seterusnya ekonomi Malaysia? Pasti merosot dan guarantee impak buruk ini akan terkena pada hidung kita sendiri. Last but not least, bila jadah picket, himpun, baring di jalan raya ini kerap dilakukan ia akan menjadi sebahagian daripada budaya di Malaysia. Jangan lupa ibu bapa/makcik pakcik/datuk nenek borek, anak2/anak2 buah/cucu cicit rintik. Nanti nda pasal2 kamu pulang rumah dari keja satu hari nanti anak2 kamu tengah picket di ruang tamu sebab nda puas hati ngan jumlah duit saku yg diberikan. Mau kah? Sy tidak mau oh. Pendek katanya, jgn la kita buat keja2 nda berfaedah ini lebih2 lagi bila melibatkan perkara2 yang kurang significant. Banyak lagi cara untuk suara kita didengari. TV3 kan ada, kalo isu tu penting, nda payah picket pun diorang cover story punya. Hotline di ruang akhbar pun ada. Muka Buku PM kita pun ada. If all else fails, there's always PRU.*Wink* Uiseh, terasa sedikit macam buat karangan waktu zaman sekolah menegah pula ni. Hahaha.. Ayat sikit punya skemah. Ah, biar lah. Yang penting messagenya sampai kan.. Ini saja lah post untuk kali ini. Wassalam.. P/S: Banyak lagi keburukkan ekoran dari kegiatan2 tunjuk perasaan ni, tapi sy tau kamu suma pandai2 belaka kan? Musti bulih pikir sendiri kan? Hehe.. Salam Sayang, Phoebe

Breaking Up Is Hard To Do

Hello peeps..
A few friends of mine have recently gone through very rough breakups. Some have been together for years while one was engaged. It made me reminiscent on my own breakup that occurred over 2 years ago. Here are just a short list of what those in the throes of heartbreak would be experiencing:

-Pain in the chest.
-Inability to breathe, sleep, eat or function
-Short temper
-Unable to focus *stares into space*
-Has the sudden urge to cry at all times *even at the most inappropriate moments such as during an office meeting*
-Has the uncontrollable desire to stalk ex *think Facebook, Twitter, etc. May drive past ex's home several times a day*
-Calls ex hysterically begging for reconciliation/calling ex then hanging up when he or she answers *they would do this even if they have to use a public phone in a dingy part of town*
-Has an affinity to sad songs of love lost *or angry songs of love lost*
-Does not care about their appearance *stringy hair, oily face, draggy clothes and zero makeup*
-Vows revenge, either by attacking him/her physically or psychologically
-Vows to make him/her regret by losing weight/buffing up or having a new love interest of their own
-Displays unusual behavior *learns to smoke, drink and may even have a one night stand*
-Feel like jumping off a tall building *"I feel dead inside, I might as well die!"*


Yes ladies and gentlemen, heartbreak is always ugly especially during what I personally call 'The Crash And Burn Period' which is the initial 2 weeks after The Breakup. While nothing might seem to matter anymore, how you handle your grief is very important to speed up the healing process of your heart. Here are some Dos and Don'ts during your grieving period:

Do:
-Tell someone you trust about the breakup. Talk it through. It will take a few sessions *and hours long at a time* so before launching into your tirade, ask your friend's permission first as they might be in the middle of something important.
-Take care of your appearance. A bit of concealer, gloss and blush works wonders. Take care of your personal hygiene too.
-Cry. Pick your moments and limit it to 3 good bawling sessions a day.
-Keep a journal. Pour your heart and soul into it.
-Find relieve in a positive and safe manner. Go for movie marathons, sing your heart out at K-Boxes, go for a run *believe me, a run works wonders and will help you sleep better at night*
-Remove your ex from your Facebook friend list/Block him or her/deactivate your account.
-Delete his/her photos and the ones you took together. It's harsh but in this case it is best to go cold turkey.
-Pray. Seriously. Cry, and ask for comfort. Only God can really help lessen the pain.

Don't:
-Call your ex. Whether it's because you want him/her to consider reconciliation, to demand an explanation or just to hear his/her voice, it is never a good idea, period. This includes calling him/her then hanging up when the call is answered.
-Stalk your ex on any social network that he might be on or his home. Common, what would you gain? Nothing but heartache, especially if the reason for your relationship's demise is a third person. Do you seriously want to see their happy pics together? I don't think so.
-You may be tempted to talk about your breakup to all and sundry, from your local grocers lady to the security guard at your bank of choice but it's best not to. You will only look back and feel embarrassed.
-Listen to sad songs. It will make you feel worse.
-Display erratic behavior such as drinking or smoking especially if it's not something that you usually do. It won't get your ex's attention. Even if it does, it will only invoke disgust on his or her part.
-Engage one night stands. You only end up hurting yourself.

I am no expert on matters of the heart but experience did teach me a thing or two. I hope this post comes in handy for those out there who had just had their heart broken. Know that you are not alone and most importantly, YOU WILL GET THROUGH THIS, it WILL get better and you WILL find a better partner in the future. I promise with my pinky finger. ^^

Wassalam..

Lots of love,
Phoebe

Breaking Up Is Hard To Do

Hello peeps..
A few friends of mine have recently gone through very rough breakups. So

Bila Phy Jadi Jakun

Hello..
Pada hari terakhir 2011, sy dengan kawan sy buat OT untuk JKR dengan mengukur 1 Borneo Hypermall. Selepas kami selesai kerja ukur mengukur ni *Tugas khas: Ukur panggung GSC* kami nampak la kunun tu kerusi yang boleh mengurut. Sudah lama bah kerusi2 tu ada di 1B, tapi saya tidak pernah amik peduli.

Lebih kurang begini la kerusi urut tu, tolak remote dan tambah slot duit jak...

Oleh sebab kami rasa penat, kami pun ambil kesempatan la kunun ni mau cuba kerusi tu. Untuk pengetahuan kamu, kerusi urut ni ada di tiga bahagian 1B *Tidak silap sy di setiap tingkat pun ada*. Kawan sy tu bawa la pigi kerusi2 di bahagian yang terselindung sikit supaya ada privacy. Maklum la, dua2 pun jakun kan. Takkan mau tunjuk juga ke'clueless'an kami depan orang ramai yang lalu lalang kan?

Sy la kunun ni yang try dulu. Rate perkhidmatan kerusi urut ni RM1 untuk 3 minit, RM5 untuk 13 minit *yang seterusnya sy tidak ingat, sebab sy tiada niat untuk duduk lama2 di kerusi tu* , etc. Sy kasi masuk la kunun RM1 dalam tu slot *itu pun terkial2 ni mula2* lepas tu sy dapat rasa kerusi tu bergetar dan badan sy seolah2 makin tenggelam dalam kerusi tu.

Start la kunu tu kerusi mengurut. Walaupun sy tau itu kerusi urut kan, I didn't know what to expect gia. Jadi mula2 tu sy rasa macam tu kerusi kena sampuk ni. Macam ada nyawa sendiri atau ada hantu yang control tu kerusi kunu. Hahaha.. Betttuuulll... Entah dari mana tu pikiran sy datang.

Tapi kan, tapi kan bila sudah dapat adjust tu perasaan... Uiiinnnaaaa.. Punya sadap. Kena urut dari punggung sampai kepala dan turun lagi balik pigi area punggung. *Siap ken picit2 bontot dan peha lagi woooorr. Kalau ini machiam hari2 ah bontot wa boleh jadi fit macam bontot JLo wooorr* Yang sy rasa geli hati tu bila tu kerusi buat urutan macam menumbuk naik turun belakang sy. Kuat bah, sampai badan sy bergetar. Bida' betul la bah tu rupa.

Sy mau ketawa tapi oleh sebab sy saturang jak time tu *kawan sy pigi tandas* nda la sy berani. Nanti kena cakap, "Tukoi, kesiannya tu perempuan. Ketara betul kebaru-baruan cuba tu kerusi urut. Macam orang gila ni ketawa2 sendiri". Sy hanya mampu senyum2 kambing biri2 di sebalik tangan sy.

By the time my 3 minutes was up, I was hooked. Tiwas sy di tangan si kerusi urut. Sy tambah lagi RM3 jadi kiranya sy berurut 12 minit la. Bila mau pulang sudah tu terasa sebak. Kalo ikut hati, mau jak sy angkut salah satu kerusi urut tu pulang. Bukan sy jak tau. Kawan sy pun tertanya2 ni, berapa lah harga sebuah kerusi urut macam tu. Sampai begitu sekali penangannya.

Jadi kawan2 kalo kamu ada nampak khidmat kerusi urut di shopping complex, sila2 lah mencubanya. Sediakan wang kertas *duit syiling tidak diterima* dan yang kecil2 jak nilainya. Kalo kamu kasi masuk RM50 rasanya slot duit tu nda akan kasi balik duit baki kamu.

Ini jak la untuk kali ni. Cheers and wassalam...  (^^) v

P/S: Kepada Bahagian Pengurusan 1 Borneo Hypermall, jika anda mendapati salah satu kerusi urut anda hilang, paham2 la ah..

Eyes Wide Shut

Hello peeps,
I have been having a really bad time these past few days. Sadness, frustration and anger had managed to infiltrate my defenses and rendered me crippled on the verge of dementia. I was losing my temper constantly and all in all it was just not a pretty sight.

Yesterday I was due to go to a doctor's appointment and although it was my first time with this doctor, I've seen how packed the waiting area was before this. I knew that it was imperative for me to get to the clinic as early as possible.

Unfortunately, it rained heavily early on that morning. The road to our house is not sealed and with tar and gets slippery during heavy rain so to venture out would be fool hardy. I felt so angry and frustrated. I felt as if Allah was being 'mean' because he let it rain on the particular day that I needed it to be sunny. *Juvenile,I know*


So at 8.30am I grudgingly went to the clinic, expecting it to be fully packed and that it would be noon before it would be my turn. Imagine my shock, yes shock, when I arrived to find that the clinic area was almost deserted. In 10 minutes I was in the doctor's room and within 30 minutes of arriving I was done.

I was amazed and I wondered why there were not many patients on that morning. Then it dawned on me that when Allah sent down the rain that morning, it was because he knew how much I needed to get through my doctor's appointment ASAP.

ALLAH KNEW WHAT I NEEDED AND GAVE ME EXACTLY WHAT I NEEDED BUT IN A DIFFERENT WAY.

If it wasn't for the rain that made it a bit difficult for the other patients to come that morning, the clinic would have been packed and as early as I might have arrived, I might have still had to wait at least an hour before being attended to. 

I felt thoroughly ashamed of myself then. I mean, it wasn't like I was totally lost or blind to the fact that Allah is never cruel, Allah gives difficulties in order to give something better in return, Qada' and Qadar, etc. However merely knowing, as opposed to truly believing, accepting and having real faith in Allah are vastly different as you can see by my shameful thoughts and reactions in the above.

I really felt that all these while my eyes were widely shut. Allah has given me so much and in so many ways yet I had been so busy moaning about what is lacking in my life that I failed time and time again to see it. I am so grateful that Allah opened my eyes this time around and made me realize all this and ashamed of my petty behavior.

I share this story because I believe I am not the only one that have felt like God was picking on me, that God didn't understand, that God was mean (Astaghfirullah'alazim..). I sincerely hope that this story might bring comfort to you. Amin.

Cheers and wassalam.